Superstition

I’m beginning to wonder if I didn’t make the correct sacrifices at the end of the year, as this new one is starting out more rocky than I am happy with.

Admittedly I didn’t make any sacrifices, however there should be a retroactive look back you are able to do to make whatever the necessary contributions to the universe to battle back whatever may be plaguing you. Bonus points if you catch the oversight in the beginning of the year or close to the first so the contributions have more impact. What superstitions would I be appeasing by making the necessary sacrifices? Do you have to know them by name? Of course that would be also putting faith in unseen or unknown possibilities of deities that would care about my brief stint on the planet?

I hate it when logic decides to pop up and make an appearance when my emotional side decides to spiral. It makes the spiraling seem unnecessary and just takes all the fun out of a freakout. Of course, logic will argue that the freakout, the spiral is completely unnecessary so it is the odd warring of my senses while I work to determine the best way to face a situation.

A larger decision is waiting on the horizon for me regarding my job. . I am actively dreading what I’m doing, reluctant to go to work and connect with people Even customers today I had difficulties with. and I’m not completely sure if my mood was just so short I had zero patience or if it was just an awful call. I’m on the cusp of making a decision that will completely change the path I had been planning this year to be on, and while it is something I’ve been avoiding, I can feel myself creeping closer and closer, as if my feet are making active calls on the direction we are supposed to be instead of my brain and logic putting together a bullet pointed list to follow before just jumping off the cliff.

It isn’t like I don’t have enough to worry about. The weather remains meat locker cold, the street hasn’t been cleared and there is no way I can even make it out of the alley should I need to, but sure let’s go ahead and tell the boss that we don’t believe they have our best interests at heart. I’m sure that will be conducive to a positive working environment. The fact that she was surprised I made the statement either indicates her total lack of a connection to reality or she didn’t believe I would call her on it.

Meanwhile the starlings that swarm my front porch and the rest of the bird nation taking over the back are seriously unhappy as I am running out of cat food (I have no idea why they gorge themselves on it) and I’ve already run out of bird seed. I’m also dangerously close to running out of creamer, but that doesn’t seem to effect the snow white effect I seem to have adopted out here. Every little animal and its distant cousin seem to be hanging out at my house this winter and I am beginning to feel like I didn’t properly prepare for the guests of the animal kingdom. I’m also a bit concerned about their response if I don’t start coughing up some nutrition soon.