Working On A Quirky Graph

On this journey one should expect to have good days and bad days. No one can escape that. Even Pollyanna had a momentary loss of optimism when she fell from that roof. And honestly, as an adult, now I’m all for her self realization that not everything is sun and roses. As a kid, I ached for her predicament and waited for her inevitable journey back to a smiling face and a happy disposition. Now, I’m like, heck yeah! Make those adults realize the hand they played in your current situation and then you get that steak and ice cream! Not that I know why anyone would eat those two together, but I’m sure at the time it just seemed extravagant which was the appeal.

This weekend I struggled to get my proteins in. I did not get my vitamins in and I’m not sure that I care all that much. I was so sore on Saturday from pushing myself earlier in the week that I stayed in bed much longer than I needed to. I gotta be honest, it was glorious. Lazy as hell, but nice none the less.

Sunday I did even worse when it came to eating healthy. I got some vitamins in, but a friend took me out to lunch and I struggled to find something I really wanted to eat. The salad I ended up ordering was just – disappointing. Of all the things to be wrong, the cheese had an odd texture. I’ve never been a texture person before, but this was enough to put me off. I hit the grocery store after as I was nearly out of eggs, cheese and plain Greek yogurt. I also picked up a slice of carrot cake. It is my absolute favorite cake to have, and I gorged myself. I didn’t eat much of the icing, but I did enjoy the sweet.

Will all of that bite me in the end? Maybe? Probably? Even if it does, I don’t regret taking the weekend. It isn’t like I ate a ton of food. I didn’t eat much at all on Saturday, although I did supplement with a small amount of cashews and dried bananas. The calorie count on that small amount of food is ridiculous, but it was what I was craving at the time.

This morning though, I’m back on my protein and vitamins. And granted I chased those with instant coffee and a teaspoon of instant espresso (no judgement! I’m working my way back to brew) to make sure I was a functioning adult during my meetings, I still started out somewhat right. While no exercise because I’m giving new facial expressions to exhausted, I’m working to stay in a calorie deficit while maintaining the bathroom Bulgarian split squats. Even small gains are gains. I’m still moving in that forward motion. But some days are slower than others.

I’ve turned in my paperwork to work an election site for the primary. It isn’t sure that they will need everyone, but it never hurts to set myself up as an option. Plus, I get out of work for a day. Which, truly is the more important thing. Now we just wait to see if I’m called up.

I need to see if there are going to be any 5Ks I want to do in February. I have the one planned for April, and I’m eyeballing one in May, but I’m beginning to think I need to push the envelope a little bit harder. It is time to put these behaviors in place so I can cement the progress. Otherwise I’m going to get lost in rainy weekends in bed, rereading my favorite authors waiting for their new books to come out. I mean, I could do personally growth type activities, but that sounds taxing.

Even though I will probably do them anyway.