Working On A Quirky Graph

These last few weeks have been exercises in patience and trying to keep up. Patience as nothing moves as fast as I believe it should, but trying to keep up because things were moving fairly quickly regardless to my conceptions.

I consistently look for signs to help me predict how things will go. I’m not good at just letting things happen and I work to have an idea of what is coming so I can have the correct reactions in place. The universe has been confusing me lately so I’ve had to go off the cuff which makes me so damn uncomfortable. Just this week I’ve taken a couple of headers just walking. Nothing where the damage was permanent, but enough to hurt and make me stop for a while. The first was at the top of my stoop, where I tripped over my toes (I have no idea how that even happens) and proceeded to start falling down the steps. Luckily I was already talking to someone at the bottom of the steps who had thrown one arm out to try and catch me, and I was able to catch myself on the handrail going down. Nothing worse happened than a couple of bruised toes, a slightly sore ankle and my heart racing from almost dying. I don’t think I even hurt the poor friendly maintenance guy who was just trying to show me something with the steps. The second time was at the coffee shop this weekend. I was just walking through the back of the house and slid on some water. This time I twisted my ankle and knee, scrapped up my forearm and shin. I finished out my shift, but texted my boss to let her know I wouldn’t be able to be in the next day. She texted back that she was out of town and to call her boss. So I did. At least her boss said sorry this happened to you, etc. They let us close the shop down early and told me to text her how I felt the next day. I didn’t sleep well, alternated ice and heat to try and soothe my leg, but ultimately I texted the dm to let her know I wouldn’t be back. I had already put in my two weeks, but it did not hurt my heart not to go back. I have no idea what I’m going to do this weekend with nothing planned.

I also got the promotion at my real job. I wasn’t expecting that at all. The job I had applied for, I was under the impression was a lateral move, but to my delight I have been informed is a promotion. With an extremely decent raise. Excuse me while I do another little dance. It will more than make up for not working at the coffee shop any longer.

I start on the first in a new department doing something completely unscripted. I’ve talked with the head of the new department and the head of customer success. I’m eager to jump in (no patience) but have informed repeatedly that the job starts on the first. Just a few days away. There is one more person from my department going with me, but it isn’t anyone I work with on a regular basis so I’m not sure how often we will work together. Especially since there on EMEA time and I’m on AMER time. There will be at least a week of training coming, plus some shadowing before I’m out on my own. It will be me working with different customers daily. It is a completely wild thought.

I’ve also almost sold the house, we are just waiting on signing the paperwork. It is wild to think of a whole chunk of my life gone. I’ve been out of the house longer than I’ve lived there so it won’t be missed too much, but it is a weird feeling. And peaceful. So peaceful that I won’t have anything being held over my head any longer. It is a few weeks until the official close date, although I’m waiting to see if the buyer would like to close early. While it would be nice, I’m not overly worried. It will happen when it happens. Rushing it would be a mistake.

Edit: of course today I got a notification that there is going to be another walkthrough. This buyer has already had several with contractors. I’m nervous they are planning on backing out of that they are rethinking. I’ll be holding my breath until the end of the week.

I had lunch with an old friend recently as well. It is amazing how much I’ve forgotten to people in the self imposed isolation of mine. I need to practice, but wow did the whole experience just wear me out. After the lunch I went home and slept. More outings will eventually be in the works, but not until I finish everything with the house and start ramping up on the new job. My new boss did request a scheduler of a sort. I need to look up and see if I can make that happen, even within the confines of what we are using until the new online system goes into effect. A little something to keep me busy.