Working On A Quirky Graph

Finally, finally I have found a job. I count myself so very lucky to be able to get one at this point. It is just enough to pay my bills and honestly I’m not going to look for more. The benefits are amazing and I’m extremely lucky to be in the position that I’m in. I’ve been stressing out and making myself ill over the whole process and quite honestly I need a minute to process.

This has been the weirdest couple of weeks. First the president tries to coerce the Georgia Secretary of State to ‘find’ him some votes, then he incites a mob to attack the Capitol in a roundabout sedition and then goes into hiding. Just today he has claimed that he has done nothing wrong.

That is, not including my own personal stressors of interviewing, being turned down for jobs automatically by software, serving the public who cannot be bothered to wear a mask most times. And co-workers trying to work my last nerve.

I’m revamping my budget, getting out of services I don’t use, working my budget line down to the bone so I don’t have to worry as much about money. My anxiety is up because I’m worried about starting a new job, even though it is remote (woot!), learning a new system, testing to come off as knowledgeable when I will still be working my ass off just to stay cool. I’m going to keep my coffee shop job. This way I can make a little extra, try and maintain my stock so I can roll it into the next thing.

All of this, I believe, is making me ill. I’ve been nauseous for about a week now, while consistently running a headache. The hot flashes and cold chills yesterday were just a bonus I’m sure. I still have my sense of smell and taste, I’m not running a fever and the only other thing keeping me from completely freaking out is that I normally get sick around this time of year. Now that I have a new job I will have to start ramping up my feel good meds. Maybe get a daytime lamp or something.

Unfortunately that doesn’t help now when I’ve got the munchies and nothing in the house to munch. I’ve been going to different Yelp restaurant delivery spots and loading up on food, but not finishing the order, mainly because it’s too late at night to worry about it. I’m hoping the large cup of hot chocolate will eventually hit the spot. I’ll be honest though, butter chicken sounds like it would be amazing right about now.